feeling stupid

what is wrong with meeeeee?????!!!!

i feel so stupid and dejected... i feel like i need to throw myself off a cliff...

i feel...

i feel...

need to go for a long drive....

yes..

of complexities and complexes

why oh why oh why...
do we turn simple things into as difficult as they can be?
they then become complexities...


why oh why oh why...
do people (with low self esteem, self confidence, self pride, etc.)
try to compensate by acting like they are 'something' or 'someone' with 'attitude'?
they then are plagued with complexes...


you see...

In the instance of  'COMPLEXITIES' ...

complexities make life difficult. its easier to be honest. say what you feel. say what you think. smile when you feel like. dont when you dont. see..easy rite? but no..we humans choose to make things difficult. "dont say what you think, it might hurt someone, or make some other think something of you."<like HUH?> OR "dont say what you feel. you might get hurt. or hurt someone. are you really sure of what you feel?" <like HUH?? yet again>
See what i mean?? simple things become difficult. and you end up doing what YOU THINK you are SUPPOSED to do. when REALLY, all you should have done is do what you WANTED to do.

In the instance of  'COMPLEXES' ...

Note this: Complexes -->In psychology, a group of related, often repressed ideas and impulses that compel characteristic or habitual patterns of thought, feelings, and behaviour. 

Ppl with complexes annoy me. let me give you an example. if you are fat, then dont make things complex. tell yourself the truth--> i am fat. i dont like the way i look because ppl dont like the way i look. so lets do something about it so i can become happy with myself. and other ppl will find me good looking too.

BUT NO...
You choose to have a complex where you say you are absolutely happy with yourself. You are proud of who you are. But you actually feel like shit deep inside. And on impulse, you do everything and anything to garner attention. Why? because you know without doing anything like that, you dont get the kind of attention you want. Well, let me tell you this. You dont get attention because you actually have a complex. And that complex is causing you to become annoying.


So here it is....

I choose to not be complex. I choose to not turn simple things into complexities. Here i am not being complex. And being simple. And this is what i have to say:

YOU COMPLEX PEOPLE AND PEOPLE WITH COMPLEXES ARE ANNOYING! The bane of my existence you are. 


Well.. thats all for today. Ta ta folks! :)

it hurts

it hurts so much to know
im never going to be perfect for you

it hurts so much to know
im never going to be pretty in your eyes

it hurts so much to know
there will be others whom your eyes will adore
and those arent me

it hurts so much to know
whatever i do
i cant change the way i look
to suit what you love to see

it hurts so much to know
however much i try
i wont be the one who will be
the prettiest you will ever see

it hurts so much to know
that i have to live with this fact
for the rest of my life

only able to see your eyes linger
on faces you deem beautiful
and see the smile on your face
when you look at  me
knowing you are contented with me
but can never be proud of me

it hurts..

Fly

Going where the wind takes me... Like little dandelions... Strength and patience are running out... Cant keep my feet strong on the ground anymore...

Hanya mampu berdoa .. dan teruskan langkah...

I want to

I want to walk the streets of Paris, sit in a sweet little cafe, and sip my cafe au laite..

I want to walk the streets of New York, stop at the sign where the little red man stands, and as i walk across the street, look at the faces that pass me by..

I want to walk in the snow covered pathway in the Kyoto gardens and gaze at the sleeping sakura trees..

I want to lie down on the fields of grass in Stratford Upon Avon watching the swans, gracefully gliding in the small rivers...

I want to stand on the bridge between the two tall towers of KLCC and look upon the heavenly night sky, standing as high up as the stars in the sky...

Will you take me...?

Happy Birthday Marissa!!

Entry ni ditujukan khas to my crazee colleague..Marissa Amalina Edham..

Note, Exhibit A:

Apparent Cousin 'It' impersonation

Model-ish pose with flying hair~

'Like-A-Sir' :)

Note, Exhibit B:

Exhbit A + 'Girl Interrupted' in Red

The exhibits above are evidence that proves this conclusion:

YOU ARE AWESOME!!

Le Unstoppable Awesome-ness!!
p/s: Picture taken just minutes ago to commemorate the epic birthday! :)

HAPPY twenty..erm...rahsia la :P BIRTHDAY MARISSA AMALINA EDHAM! Me is love you very much! Glad to have le crazy buddy in the office! 

Sincerely,

Faranadia Ahmad

Somethings...All Things...

There are somethings you can never take a break from.

Somethings without time outs.

Somethings which are the first on your mind, when you open your eyes to see the morning sunlight illuminating the room.

Somethings which are the last on your mind, before your eyes are shut and the dark abyss takes over.

Somethings that make you smile for its unboundless warmth and pleasure.

Somethings that make your tears seem unjustified, unsufficient to portray the frustration that overwhelms you.

Somethings that decide what sort of person you are.

Somethings that decide what sort of person you can be.

And, there are also somethings you just dont know. Somethings you just want. Somethings you need. Somethings you can never hold on to. And somethings.....you might just be able to have.

Takdir memang telah ditulis. Tetapi pilihan untuk ke jalan-A atau jalan-B tetap milik kita. Akal dah diberi. Yang betul dan yang salah, itu terpulang atas tuan punya nafsu dan logik. Not just somethings..but actually, ALL things..we decide.

"When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down"

-The Fray: Look After You

You, yes you..thanks for the motivation nak up entry ye :)
p/s: gambar tiada kene mengena dgn entry..hanya nak tambah gambar berunsur gedik dalam blog yg tak pernah ada gambar ni :P