feeling stupid

what is wrong with meeeeee?????!!!!

i feel so stupid and dejected... i feel like i need to throw myself off a cliff...

i feel...

i feel...

need to go for a long drive....

yes..

of complexities and complexes

why oh why oh why...
do we turn simple things into as difficult as they can be?
they then become complexities...


why oh why oh why...
do people (with low self esteem, self confidence, self pride, etc.)
try to compensate by acting like they are 'something' or 'someone' with 'attitude'?
they then are plagued with complexes...


you see...

In the instance of  'COMPLEXITIES' ...

complexities make life difficult. its easier to be honest. say what you feel. say what you think. smile when you feel like. dont when you dont. see..easy rite? but no..we humans choose to make things difficult. "dont say what you think, it might hurt someone, or make some other think something of you."<like HUH?> OR "dont say what you feel. you might get hurt. or hurt someone. are you really sure of what you feel?" <like HUH?? yet again>
See what i mean?? simple things become difficult. and you end up doing what YOU THINK you are SUPPOSED to do. when REALLY, all you should have done is do what you WANTED to do.

In the instance of  'COMPLEXES' ...

Note this: Complexes -->In psychology, a group of related, often repressed ideas and impulses that compel characteristic or habitual patterns of thought, feelings, and behaviour. 

Ppl with complexes annoy me. let me give you an example. if you are fat, then dont make things complex. tell yourself the truth--> i am fat. i dont like the way i look because ppl dont like the way i look. so lets do something about it so i can become happy with myself. and other ppl will find me good looking too.

BUT NO...
You choose to have a complex where you say you are absolutely happy with yourself. You are proud of who you are. But you actually feel like shit deep inside. And on impulse, you do everything and anything to garner attention. Why? because you know without doing anything like that, you dont get the kind of attention you want. Well, let me tell you this. You dont get attention because you actually have a complex. And that complex is causing you to become annoying.


So here it is....

I choose to not be complex. I choose to not turn simple things into complexities. Here i am not being complex. And being simple. And this is what i have to say:

YOU COMPLEX PEOPLE AND PEOPLE WITH COMPLEXES ARE ANNOYING! The bane of my existence you are. 


Well.. thats all for today. Ta ta folks! :)

it hurts

it hurts so much to know
im never going to be perfect for you

it hurts so much to know
im never going to be pretty in your eyes

it hurts so much to know
there will be others whom your eyes will adore
and those arent me

it hurts so much to know
whatever i do
i cant change the way i look
to suit what you love to see

it hurts so much to know
however much i try
i wont be the one who will be
the prettiest you will ever see

it hurts so much to know
that i have to live with this fact
for the rest of my life

only able to see your eyes linger
on faces you deem beautiful
and see the smile on your face
when you look at  me
knowing you are contented with me
but can never be proud of me

it hurts..