Change

I realised how much I've changed when..

I don't go to lounges for jazz anymore
I start to care how many pimples I have on my face
I use cosmetic products on my face
I put on whitening mask on my face
I actually really worry about my weight
I count every single line underneath my eyes
I actually am contemplating make up?
I feel like I'm not pretty or beautiful in any way..anymore..

I am trying too hard to be someone who I think I am not..

Is change really imminent?