De-pres-sion

Define?
-A mental state characterized by a pessimistic sense of inadequacy and a despondent lack of activity
-A common mental disorder that presents with depressed mood, loss of interest or pleasure, feelings of guilt or low self-worth, disturbed sleep or appetite, low energy, and poor concentration
-If you think of the body as a container, then it is a sign that there is no room left to take in more stimulation. The "cup is full"  ....


The "cup is full". The cup IS full. What is worth trying and what is not? Is it possible to shed each layer of who you are in hopes of becoming a perfect person. Daring to even think you may be worthy of such fairytale..  like such people in those damn movies.. those damn movies- yes, the ones that makes you smile silly imagining you were the one 'he' said those beautiful words to. Damn those movies.

The days that go by just feels empty now. To please.. to not anger.. to not step a toe outside the imaginary perfect cocoon you think you have built for yourself. What is it do i have to do.

Sometimes i hate myself. I build this. I build this world. And why is it inadequate now? Why is it so difficult now? It used to be so easy. It used to be effortless. Now im suffocating. And slowly, brick by brick i scrape and peel at everything..destroying it with my own hands.

What do u want Fara? Think. Isnt this what you want? Isnt this perfect world something you have always wanted, dreamed of, prayed for...all this while.
Then stop this.
Stop this insanity.
Dont sabotage the ONE thing you think u can hold onto.

I am drowning...But ill keep my head high. Hoping for the last few breaths i can take before i am completely submerged. Will he open this door for me and drain me from my fears??

Bordering on depression. The cup IS full.